tonight

so it's 5:30 am and i'm not drunk because i just ate an enormous hamburger, but i felt the need to say some things.
lately i've felt more like myself, more together. not sure why or what's the change, but i'm about to go back to my old haircolor (blonde - which is significant only because i'm going back to who i used to be), i have a group of friends that i love and that make me feel complete, and i think i am ready to take the next step with my career and my professional life.

i have been in love and had a broken heart twice this year. i almost lost my mother, rebuilt the relationship with my brother, and learned horrifically difficult lessons about love and friendship. basically i am just ready for this year to be over, for 2006 to start, for there to be a new me, but really, just the same old Cristina. the one i know.

i'm also hoping the new year brings forgiveness, and the strength for me to put aside old drama and rebuilt lost love, friendship and otherwise. i dont know, right now i just have hope that everything will be ok. my mother is ok right now, which is really my main concern, and after that there are just friends, who are my extended family.