this. again.

same situation as last night. 2 am. raging insomnia. cancelled on j. AGAIN.
don't know why he puts up with it. cause i mean, i'm not that great. there's no reason for these shennanigans. particularly when i cancelled on him to go to bed to catch up on my sleep from last night (2.5 hours), except i ended up going out anyway tonight with other people, until just now.

i know exactly how i got here. i can pinpoint exactly the moment when i made the decision to cross the bridge from "just great" into "really pissed off and annoyed." and i still did it. again. tonight. just now.

even though i had just had a lovely time. and tina had convinced me earlier in the night that i am the funniest. and j. had forgiven me yet again. and i hadn't offended e. again like i had been every day for a month.

so really, things had been going well. until 2 seconds ago when i crossed the bridge.

i blame it on drunk-n-blog.
because at least tonight i have an excuse i didnt have last night.
which may actually be worse cause i broke my caloric count.
yes, i am that lame.
plus i'm singing kinda loudly.
um, is that my doorbell? WTF?