in the afternoon

for about a week, i've been on a new sleep schedule, one recommended by a sleep center and a variety of doctors, to help with my really fantastic insomnia and massive oversleeping cycles, and of course, to ease the crazies (au naturel, baby!)
i am supposed to go to bed at midnight each night, NO MATTER WHAT, and rise each morning at seven, NO MATTER WHAT.

i fucked this up on the first day, when i was so beat, that i passed out on a chair at 11:30. see, you're not supposed to even go near the bed, or be in any - uh - sleeping positions anywhere until midnight. but yes, first night, 11:30. so now i do 11:30 - 7. and it is the worst thing i've ever done.

i thought it'd be easy. i'd get routine, and i'd stop going to bed at the most random times ever. i'd stop oversleeping, or waking at 4am.

no. i still wake up every hour on the hour, i just can't make up for it with an extra hour in the morning, i can't take naps, and i can't lie in bed as i please.

also, my mood is generally much worse because I'M SO DAMNED TIRED.

today, when i have a half day at work, the only thing i want to do is come home and SLEEP for the rest of the afternoon. do essay, nap, do essay, nap, pedicure, nap. but no. i will just sit on a chair like a zombie until 11:30.

at least i have much to look forward to this weekend. like for example, going out till 4, then waking at FUCKING SEVEN.
hee.