now, that's just not hygenic.

i have my quality of life back.
i don't even want to get into the amount of cleaning that went on today. other friends commented at how small my apartment is, and how it shouldn't take that long to clean. in theory, this is all true.
however, the amount of bacteria (for lack of better word) living in my apartment was shocking even to me.
i also prepped 4 bags of clothing/shoe donations for the salvation army.
santiago will never sleep on the bed again (long, smelly story), and i have made a weekly appointment with myself in my calendar to spend 2 hours cleaning.
this will never happen to me again. i need my apartment to be an oasis, not a smelly breeding ground for infection.
i'm actually ashamed of myself.
but it's ok, because i'm doing something about it. just like i'm doing something about everything else that i'm unsatisfied with right now.
i'm changed. i had been changing for a long time now. but today, it's done. i see things differently.
not just because of my apartment, but because of the way i've been living.
i'm ready.