it's a hit

i wake up, begin my morning routine, which involves a trip to whole foods, and i plan my day.
the tone of the day is set after my first phone conversation with my mother. if today is a good day for her, it is a good day for me.
the past few weeks (perhaps even longer), it's been a bad day for her every day. which means my days are not so great.

the thing about challenges is that they test everything you ever believed.
do you believe you are healthy? let's do some genetic testing just to make sure. (appt for Jan 31st)
do you believe you are intelligent? numb your pain with substances a little more, why don't you?
do you believe you are merely taking a break? there is no taking a break from reality.
do you believe you are not alone? a picture of your day reveals a solitary brush stroke.
do you believe it will end up fine? well, has it been fine so far? didn't think so.