tiñes mis dias

alright, so I admit i've been melancholy lately. I blamed it on PMS, but then my period came and went and i'm still sorta crutched in the head.

today, oh yes, today I think I labeled the source of my crutchery.

I feel inappropriate. inappropriate and out of place.
underdressed, with hair that's too curly, nails that are too short, breasts that are too small, a hunger that's too big, a wardrobe that's not fancy enough, and a waist that's not small enough.

this troubles me.
for I have never lacked self-confidence.

but PR breaks me down.
and it's kinda weird, and scary, and I don't really know what to do about it.

for here I am, shopping for glasses with him, at the mall, and i'm wearing my old buddha shirt, ripped jeans and messy hair. and I feel totally, completely and without a doubt inappropriate.