heartbreak

sometimes friends are so full of wisdom. on a day like today, when it just so happens that my best friend lives too far away, and my other soulmates are on vacation in another country, i need those thoughts to keep me alive.

it is so horrible when you feel like you're not enough, like nothing you can do or say will get someone to love you like you love them, to give you everything you want to give them. at first you get sad and upset, wondering what you did to not deserve love. then you get angry, realizing it isn't you. then you get upset again, fearful that in fact, it is. you're just not the right person, not enough, not now, not the one worth the struggle.

so it's your friends that remind you that you were a person before and you'll be a person after, and most importantly, it seems right now, they, the people that have always been there and that know you the best, will be right there standing next to you the next day.