mean trick

memories are so vivid in my mind, they haunt me, make me cry and smile and wish i could wipe it all away. i still don't understand how this happened, i'm as confused as ever, and i dont really know what my next step should be.

what i do know is how i feel. i feel angry and foolish and heartbroken and stupid. but most of all in love.

i also feel fearful, and lonely. my mind is playing tricks on me, taking me on one journey, convincing me i feel one way and that i should do one thing, then taking me elsewhere. i'm as confusing as he is.