autumn

my life is full right now, which is great. the weather is finally cooling off, the city giving way to my favorite time of year. it seems that in the history of my life, fall is when everything happens. i am immediately happier, i get a jumpstart, i realize what it is i have to do. that's what's happening right now. it's a new start, all because of 60 degrees.

i'm trying to mend the relationship between my mother and me. the fact that she's sick makes everything harder on both of us, and i've been trying extra hard to be sensitive to her feelings and her struggle. it's just hard in the middle of feelings of anger, of missing my father, who i've been thinking nonstop about, and dealing with my mom's cancer and beyond. it's a crazy time.