whatever reference #423 aka speed dial #2

when i was involved in the one relationship that was real, based on mutual love and respect and assumed to be forever, he was my speed dial #2. upon our then-horrific-now-ok breakup, that space on my phone, my preferred mode of communication that is always with me, became empty again. when i became involved with someone else, there was the song, by zero 7, speed dial #2, that described the very essence of my relationship with this spot on my phone and my ex. "i don't need you anymore."

when my new partner became speed dial #2, i tried not to think that the spot was forever jinxed, and even hesitated for awhile before putting his number there. but it should have been no surprise when just a few weeks later, as predicted and despite the fact that we had been flirtingthendatingthenseriouslyinvolved for a long time, our relationship went sour. and just like i returned the keys to his place, i emptied my speed dial. "i don't need you anymore."